we transited at san fransisco for a couple of hours. while i was sitting there looking at the people walking by, it seems so strange and unfamiliar. fear crept in and wondering what i am doing here.
mom and dad picked us up and we came home to have something simple for dinner. looking at "my room", i don't know how i would unpack everything and settle in.
today is sunday and early in the morning, i didn't feel like doing anything or go anywhere. i did what i know i've always done in times like this--read the bible. i have this dependency on God during uncertain times. i know that God has words for comfort and assurance. well, didn't read much then mom came in and talked with me. she is obviously very happy to have me back. dad had decided that we would go to lake for the sunday service. since i was up and didn't feel so sleepy, we went for the 9 o'clock service. it was the 5th sunday so a family service including children, youths, and adults. not so typical of the traditional service that i've been to in the past at lake. there was also a new pastor.
somehow, as i sat there, i started to remember how every time i returned to LA for visits and whenever we went to lake, i would receive something from the Lord. so i did. same reminders as before...
- prioritize our lives (focusing on the Great Commandment)
- enjoy our relationship with the Lord like Mary did (the message was focused on Luke 10 the latter part)
- surrendering of our lives (thru songs like I Surrender all, Seek Ye First)
- trust in God's goodness (thru song You are Good)
just unpacked all the suitcases and put my clothes away. the books and other stuff are stacked everywhere in the rooms.
i think a part of the anxieties and fears crept in as i came back last night came with the feeling of unfamiliarity. living in singapore for 7 years, i know how things work. being away from the US for 8 years, i need to re-learn how people and things work here.
i think i just need to take one step at a time, one thing at a time...
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